So my indoor team won a huge game tonight, 7-5, over a team that has defeated the previous few meetings. So why am I not in a good mmod about the game? Because I am a joyless asshole? Well, that is harsh, but probably correct.
I am in a slump, despite the fact I managed to score a goal tonight (on a rebound "tip in") I am just not getting any good touches. Whereas last week I felt like I was running around in circles contributing nothing, this week I felt like I was running around in circles, and squandered most of my touches with errant passes or ballhandling. I guess I made a couple decent defensive plays, and as always I showed a lot of "hustle," but for the second consecutive week, I just felt my overall effort and performance was severely lacking. But we won, so I should be really happy about that.
I can only play my way out of this "slump." It just doesn't help that from about May through September I was playing like an absolute stud, and my team was winning a lot. Then my play started to turn lackluster, as did my team, and now I feel like I am just playing like shit, even though I'm not, and I am probably being Much to hard on myself.
It certainly doesn't help that I was in a bad mood before the game, from this afternoon. I received Ryu's iMac on perma-loan over the weekend, and only got around to turning it on today, and hooking it up to my old WinTel computer that has been serving as "mine" ever since it was assembled from spare parts and slapped together last June. It isn't the greatest computer, and after getting it "set up" last June, I hardly used it most of the summer when Greg was in Chicago, using his instead. It wasn't until August that I really started using this on a regualr basis, and I still use Greg's a lot of the time, but I just wanted something I could download my digital camera pictures onto, update my website, and surf the net. This thing doesn't even have sound, and frankly I have no idea if it just needs some speakers, or a new sound card, so it is pretty lacking.
Of course, I have NO money to spend on computer shit, and beggars can't be choosers. And like I said, I still use Greg's computer to download songs from Kazaa, use Photoshop or Dreamweaver (even though both those programs are installed on this thing, and I haven't used Dreamweaver to update the Beer page in Way too long, but my neglect of the Beer page is another rant for another day) and his has a CD burner. This thing is Really limited by my small hard drive, but I have put out "feelers" on getting a bigger one, and that would solve most of my concerns right there. This thing runs Windows XP, with Microsoft Office, which most importantly includes Word and Outlook, two programs I like and am comfortable with. I've got Outlook configured JUST the way I want it to check my email, which is important.
I'm not a "computer person" which means I don't like to/don't want to fuck around with them. All my internet stuff, I realize, is like TV. If it went away, I probably wouldn't miss it after a while. But I have it, I want it, and like having it aorund as something to do, like TV. I've always said, I pay the TV bill to get sports and some of the cable channels like History, TLC, Discovery, and Comedy Central. But now I'm rambling. Where the hell was I going with this?
Anyway, I was excited about making the "switch" to the Macintosh, just like in the TV ads, until I realized this afternoon that it is going to be a big pain in the ass, I am going to have to abandon many of the "comfortable" configurations of this Wintel machine (and before Mac-philes start yelling, I am sure I can one day become comfortable with the Mac, in fact I KNOW I will become comfortable with the Mac, but that leads to my second point which is...) and spend some time "setting up" the Mac the way I like it. For instance, this afternoon, I decided to configure the Mail program on the Mac to check my emails, and I just don't like the einvironment compared to what I have on Outlook. Beyond that, I couldn't figure out how to transfer all my Outlook folders and address book over, which means I'd be started anew, which I don't really want becasue, as I said, I just don't want to fuck with it.
But I'm bitching, and rambling, and probably making a big deal out of nothing, and I really don't know where I'm going with this. I could just back up everything on this hard drive (to CD, via Greg's computer) and just start using the Mac, which I don't want to do becasue of the impending "culture shock" and having to fuck with things for a while, or I can just have these two things running parallel to each other on my desk, like I do now, and make a gradual transition.
So, this afternoon, realizing the prospect of the having to make a sudden switch irritated me, I just decided to go with the gradual thing. When will I wean myself off this Wintel? I really don't know.
